A year ago

A year ago this day, 31 May, I met up with P for the very first time. I waited at Starbucks at Raffles City for him. When he finally appeared, we decided to head to the basement for a meal. We had Korean food that evening. That was the first of my only two meals I had with him, out of three meet-ups. The last meet-up was over half a year ago already but the last phone call we had was less than a month ago. And tonight, would have been our anniversary meal. But it will not be so. I have to move on. For us.

3 baby kittens @ EAST

Surprise kittens have been found at EAST since Monday, Apparently, Rock found them next to the drum set at Agape Room. Today, Friday, is the first time I've seen the three lovely kittens. They look barely two weeks old, all snuggling around each other, sleeping all day long. Praying they will grow healthy and happy @ EAST compound over the next few days, weeks, months and years.

Sadly... on that very evening itself, the kittens were brought to SPCA by Rock and his wife. They were worried for the well-being of the three kittens over the weekend as the mommy cat seemed to have abandoned them. I pray that each of them eventually goes to a good and loving home.

7 May 17

We had a lovely family lunch to celebrate TF's 61st birthday on 7 May. Auntie KC, MF, P&P, mum, sis, bro, sis-in-law and my 3 yr old nephew were all present to celebrate with TF.

Also, that night, I had a goodbye chat with P. Instead of the usual ghosting for the past few times, I got his consent to break off for good. It felt good. He respected my decision. YL was happy for me. I felt numbed initially but I feel glad now. It is the good, right and honorable thing to do. To kinda right a wrong because two wrongs does not a right make.

I pray that God will continue to guide every step of my way and protect me from all evil.

2 weeks to Exams

I've got two exams in less than 2 weeks on 16 and 18 May. It's 6 May today. Next Saturday is another busy day because of EAST 23rd Commencement, which will be held at Bartley Christian Church. In fact, the whole of next week will be an extremely busy week in my view, as there is a Homecoming Dinner on 10 May, Wednesday, and a Graduation Party on 11 May, Thursday evening. The Alumni Retreat is held from 10-12 May, Wednesday to Friday. I am hoping to take the following week off, 15-18 May off at least, because of my exams.

I have found myself a perfect typing spot at level 5 of SUSS (Singapore University of Social Sciences, new name of UniSIM since March 17, 2017). It has a pretty view of some palms and a neat row of 10 trees in a planter directly facing me. I tried locating a comfortable seat in the library but found the temperature in there too cold for my comfort. The natural air and environment on level 5 with a great view to boot seems like an ideal spot for me.

On 24 April, I was grieving of the demise of a beloved community cat Tutu who had met with an accident while a fast turning car entered the carpark. That fateful night that I was grieving, I reconnected with P. Soon after, I was grieving the loss of L's family cat Jack who had to be put down because L felt they could no longer cope with Jack's seemingly uncontrollable behaviour and impulses. According to L, Jack had been too stressed and tensed and was probably suffering from some kinda PTSD even as a kitten or while he was in his mother's womb. It was all too complex for me. I just knew that Jack was no longer a happy cat and L's family no longer could cope with the normal feeding and handling. Especially after Jack acted out and bit L. It was very sad as Jack was a barely 2 year old cat. However, the decision was made with Jack's welfare in mind too, as he was living a stressed out miserable life.

Life is full of complications, mysteries and hurdles to be crossed.