Easter Weekend

Easter Weekend has just passed by with mum, sis and I travelling to Malacca for the annual visit to my maternal grandparents gravesides and my eldest uncle and grand uncle's gravesides as well. Following the paying of respects, we adjourned to a nearby Chinese restaurant for our family reunion lunch. We had three tables full of relatives from my mum's side of the family. It was really nice to catch up with different ones.

I realised that the niece whom I called Xiaomin is called Li Yong Min and her sister is Li Yong Rou. Her brother's name still kinda escapes me. This Xiaomin is now a business journalist with Nanyang Shangbao. I feel proud of her name. Her husband is an engineer who helps with CCTV system in condominiums or office buildings. They are so grown up now. Also, apparently her dad who had previously run off with another woman had returned home to live with her mum, my cousin. That is good news for their family in some ways.

Auntie June and Uncle MW missed out on the gathering this year. A few years ago, all five siblings were present. That was really nice to see.

On a side note, I restarted a chat group with B and uncle L, with a new group name. :D hopefully, this group chat lasts longer than the last. keeping my toes and fingers crossed.

Today happened to be cousin FF's 60th birthday, while my bro's 50th will be coming up in June. Hoping these two birthday celebrants have a wonderful milestone year and many more lovely years ahead!

Teasing

After I exited the ICB Chat group, then I realised that for most parts, texts sent by B was mostly for teasing me. Still, I was sensitive and riled up by his messages emotionally. After exiting and not texting him for the past two days, I am a lot calmer emotionally. Therefore I guess it was good for me to have exited the chat group. Too much chatter is not good for my soul anyway. Silence is a good spiritual discipline to cultivate. At least, when I am not distracted by all the texting back and forth, I now have more time to journal both online and offline.

It is good for me to process what I am going through emotionally. What is affecting my moods and mental health. That way I can learn how to cultivate better mental habits that will inject more optimism and resilience into my mental state. I need to be emotionally and mentally more resilient as a person.

Mummy is 77

Last Sunday, on 14 April, we celebrated mummy's 77th birthday with a celebration lunch (Teochew Cuisine). Mum and I had Penang Fried Kway Teow in JB for her birthday dinner. For her post-birthday lunch on Monday, we ate well at Beijing Restaurant in JB. I am blessed to have mummy as my companion and friend when she is 77 and I am 44. I am not sure how much longer mum is going to be around with me, so I hope I will not take her for granted for as long as she lives, and for as long as I live.

Last night, I exited from the ICB chat group that I have been in with uncle L and B. I decided I need to protect my heart. Some texts were wounding to my emotions and heart, so I decided to exit the group to better manage my own well-being. I know it is better for my own mental and emotional health in the long run. I pray God gives me more wisdom daily. That God teach me to love myself better so that I am also better to love others better.

New Sheepskin Rug

I bought a $69 grey sheepskin rug from Tampines IKEA last night although my objective in heading there was to look for a suitable shelf. I also bought a pair of oven gloves, a pot holder and a set of children's cutlery, bowls, plates and cups.

Penang Laksa

A grab food delivery of $1 in the late afternoon can surprisingly be a gift of love. Today, B sent over Penang Laksa to me. Even though I had quite a huge packet of fried rice for lunch, I definitely had to dig in to this tub of love, even though I could not quite finish it. Uncle lemon found it amusing too that B would order food for me without me asking and checked with me if B is now my boyfriend. I said he had not asked me to be his girlfriend, so how could he be my boyfriend? hehehe

Just yesterday, Dr R almost seemed to hint that B and I seemed to be in a special relationship. He said I acted like we are in one. I just said I'm just enjoying the friendship while it lasts. No need to take things too seriously or put too much pressure on any relationship for that matter. Most of all, pray that God will guide me as I go through life - however long or short my life may be.